Flashbacks

Back when I was little, I loved Lizzie McGuire. She was the better version of Hannah Montana (in my opinion, actually she was “the original”). And I still love Hilary Duff (it’s always funny how that gets to rhyme). I love all of her movies and I guess I probably always will.

I’ve always been the weird kid, kind of like “Matilda”, because I loved reading books and everyone in my class hated it. I was 10 or something when I read all the Harry Potter books and the Alex Rider books (Anthony Horowitz), while my classmates never touched a book. Except of cartoons, and I REFUSE to call those things “books”. But my super smartass classmates thought that a book that has more than 20 pages was a total disaster. And it was a crime to read the same books as the teachers, which I always did.

I never liked playing with the kids when I was little. I remember myself sitting at the table with my oldest aunt (who I love very much), eating beetroot (I totally love them, probably because of the memories I have of them) and talking about… everything. I don’t remember what we were talking about, okay I do a little: about my dad (she was probably angry at him, she always is). I think they’re hilarious those two (: Because she’s older she can say and do whatever she wants and I totally love her for that.The reason I love that memory that much is because she always treated me like I was a little lady and not a kid (did I mention I was 4 or 5 years old back then?).

 My mom always said I would sit down with the adults and the elderly, and talk like I was 85 instead of 5. And the granny’s: THEY WERE AWESOME. Oh, and I did weird things such as fight with teachers at kindergarden because “they are stupid and mean” (actually there was this one teacher who was a total bitch, too bad I didn’t know the word “bitch” back then). I had this one teacher who played piano and I loved her so much she would always play me songs and learn me how to play the piano (that’s probably also why I love the piano, it’s my favorite instrument).

Now I’m a teenager and not a little girl anymore but… I really wish I was©
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Bullies, haters and bitches

Have you ever been bullied? No? Well, let me tell you it sucks. I really feel sorry for people who try to put others down. Because it doesn’t show off how “cool” you are but what a loser you are.

Funny thing is that the people who bullied me in primary school are my biggest fans now. Hi-la-ri-ous!

I read a lot of mails where people tell how uncomfortable and insecure they are just because they’ve been bullied. But those people are the most beautiful persons and they kind of make the world a better place.

So why the hell do bullies pick them out? Well, jealousy is the “leader” here but I think they probably don’t respect themselves. Because if you respect yourself and if you’re really “COOL” you won’t ever hurt someone’s feelings to make yourself feel better. That’s sick.

And mostly the bullied kids feel alone and misunderstood. Well let me tell you: 1) you’re NOT alone and you’re WORTH it and 2) what I just said.

If you want to stop it you need to stand up for yourself. And tell someone ( your teacher, friends, parents,…) I know it’s difficult (I’ve been there), but from the moment you open your mouth they do back off. Maybe they’ll laugh at you first and start acting more like a little bitch but they’ll stop if you show them that you’re not weak. They are.

Here’s a cheer up!

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Fail, fail, fail again.

Ever had those moments in life, when you think everything is going wrong? EVERY SINGLE THING. 

And then you wonder where you went wrong. No, probably you wonder why it supposed to happen to you. And it seems so unfair that there are people in this world who get everything easily done. You know, the perfect, rich and good-looking ones? Well, let me tell you that (you’re not the only one) no matter how hard life sucks sometimes, I never really give in. 

Ok, I really get mad, cry and kind of want to jump from a bridge. But then I tell myself: “ Girl, really?”. It’s ok to feel bad for yourself sometimes, but that doesn’t mean you have to give up everything because “it won’t work out anyway”. Of course it won’t work out if you just sit and do nothing. 

And honestly? How can you ever truly enjoy and appreciate life if you never fail or got hurt? Living life means that sometimes, you get a high five in the face. With a chair. 

But no matter how painful life can be you ALWAYS need to hold your head up high and be a beautiful person. Because you can be rich, super smart and  really handsome but that doesn’t mean that people will look up to you and love you for who you really are (to be honest they only love your money). But money doesn’t make happiness. 

I think success comes to those who believe in themselves. Even when nobody does. And the more I get hive fives in the face, the more I grow stronger and wiser. And that’s what really matters in life, to grow and become who you really are. NO MATTER WHAT.

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I hope you dance

My grandma always told me to keep "dancing" while I'm young ;) So these lyrics mean alot to me!

Gonna run, while we're young and keep the faith (;

I hope you still feel small 
When you stand by the ocean
Whenever one door closes, I hope one more opens
Promise me you'll give faith a fighting chance

And when you get the choice to sit it out or dance
Dance
I hope you dance
I hope you dance
(Time is a real and constant motion always)
I hope you dance
(Rolling us along)
I hope you dance
(Tell me who)
(Wants to look back on their youth and wonder)
I hope you dance
(Where those years have gone)

(Tell me who)
I hope you dance
(Wants to look back on their youth and wonder)
(Where those years have gone) 


                                                           

Liu Yan

Liu Yan

Chinese name: Liu Yan
English Name: Ada
Category: Movie Star sign: Scorpio
Height: 164cm Weight: 47kg Measurements: 82cm, 61cm, 87cm Languages: Mandarin, Cantonese, English
Favorite season: Summer favorite thing to do: sleep most intolerable thing: were kept, was tired of favorite singer: cards  favorite color: purple

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Decisions

You know this person your whole life and then it changes. You can’t explain it but it feels like you’ve grown up and this person has not. Now I do understand the saying “you should grow together”. Because if you don’t you’ll just grow apart. And the worst of all is you can’t explain it to the other person because they don’t understand. 

Funny isn’t it? How one moment can change everything. All you thought you knew is disappearing. And you feel this hole inside of you. And no matter how hard you try, no matter what you do it doesn’t change. 
It doesn’t go back to how it was before. So you just start avoiding it. Running away. And then you feel guilty but you can’t go back because you already made your choice. 

But we all make mistakes and we all get second chances, we do. If you really want to change something or apologize it’s never too late for that. And sometimes it’s just better to let go then to keep holding on. Sometimes it’s something you can’t fix it. It's broken.

And then you need to make a decision. A decision for yourself, not to please your family or friends or your boyfriend/girlfriend. You have to make decisions for yourself, so you can finally breathe easy. I have a problem with the last one. 

Whenever I would make a decision I would make it to make everyone comfortable, everyone except of me. But that needs to end. And it’s gonna end. Today. 

And if I fail so what? I’m not perfect and I don’t want to be. I just don’t want to apologize anymore, because no one has ever apologized to me for what they did wrong. 

And maybe you reader should do that too? Stop listening to what people tell you to do or what you feel like you have to do because you have to it’s not something you can decide. 

Don’t go blame others with “ it’s your fault, because you said it was the right thing to do” or start feeling guilty because it's not what people are expecting from you. 

It’s your life so make something out of it. And screw all the people who think the opposite. It’s your choice. You’ve to make it and no one else.

Make sure you enjoy it,ok?

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WARNING: Read vampire diaries only by twilight (;

Why is everyone so crazy about vampires? Well, I guess because they’re everything we’re not. 

I mean every teen age girl is kind of waiting for her “Edward” to enter the classroom. The new mysterious guy. The funny thing is that we had a kind of Edward in our class this year. He’s the gentleman, the one who doesn’t talk much but is very smart. And if he talks you can see all the girls staring at him (Edward hair included). 

Too bad for him that I don’t really wait for a “vampire”. So I end up being the only who’s not really impressed. Although I was the first one joking around of him being some twilight figure. 

I mean I read the twilight books and to be honest they’re good. So good. But I refuse to watch the movies. I just REFUSE. If it comes down to watching I rather watch Vampire Diaries. Ian Somerhalder (do I have to say more?). Nina Dobrev and Paul Wesley are both “believable” and honestly they should be “Bella and Edward”. Ok, I really should get over that. 

Anyway vampires where do they come from? Do they exist?  I need to find that one out. Since I’m obsessed with myths and sagas, that shouldn’t be a problem right? And who knows maybe I’ll find my prince vampire? 

Oh, I do have to mention that I prefer my "Prince Vampire" looking like Damon Salvatore. Joke.

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Lovestory

What is love? Too bad that people in the 21st century don’t believe in true love anymore. It’s like nobody takes love serious. I mean, stories as “The Notebook” and “Titanic” who said those stories are just stories? We live in a HUGE world so maybe somewhere, somehow a woman can relate to it. Maybe there is a “Rose”  or an “ Aillie”. Who knows?

You know, after watching a beautiful movie I always smile, because somehow I know that somewhere in this world this story is a part of someone’s past. And I do believe in prince charming.

Ok, we all have been hurt and disappointed. But that doesn’t mean that “the one” has already left. Because YOU are the one who decides who “the one” is in your story. 

Your first love is always something you’ll remember and something magical. But that doesn’t mean that it’s your only love. 

True, you’ll be hurt a while and you’ll feel like you’ll never be able to love again. But time heals and people change, they grow up. And then, when you least expect it, you meet someone who’s different. A person who can make you see things you never saw before and take you to places you’ve never been before. And when you meet that person, decide then: 

                                                         

                                                            to be or not to be…?

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Dear Stranger

Sometimes you meet people in life and you might not really notice them, but they can make a change. I’m blessed to have so many good people in my life. Like my teacher Ilse, she was someone who always believed in me. She’s a truly beautiful and talented person. When I was in her class it wasn’t like in math class (you hope to get out of it as soon as possible). 

She was an actress. She could tell you some boring historical story but it would sound like a famous movie scene. She would dance, laugh and cry. She would always have your back. I’m not perfect but she’d make me feel like I was someone in this world. Like I did matter. And all the kids in class were jealous as she said to me:” You don’t realize how amazing you are, do you?” And I was speechless.

I always smile. I always make my classmates laugh and I always tell stories. I talk to teachers like they’re my friends. I do believe in the beautiful parts of life like love, peace and happiness. They always say that I’m a dreamer and that I talk too much. But they never tell me to shut up when I’m in the middle of a story. 

So today dear stranger I want to thank you! Because your comment of me not writing and that you wanted to hear my story made me write again!

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